I’ve done two solid years of DBT, the acronym of Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. And thanks to the groundbreaking work of Marsha M. Linehan, I’m here today. I can say, with utter truth, that DBT played a huge and integral part in my recovery, and has really shaped me into the person I am today. DBT took me from a place of impulsivity to one frequent peace with myself and my emotions. It wasn’t until after DBT that I began to apply a great deal of importance to inner peace. I want to share these things with people who may also benefit from them. With that said this is Lessons from DBT: Wise Mind and Mindfulness.
Wise Mind is this beautiful intersection between Rational Mind and Emotional Mind. These two mind states can wreak havoc on your life in you exist too extremely in on or the other. For example, finding yourself only existing in Rational Mind, you might be cold, withdrawn, and lacking empathy. You could be slow to act and struggle to make decisions. While existing only in Emotional Mind you could find yourself acting emotionally impulsive. Jumping to conclusions and letting your emotions dictate your actions. You can see how an unbalanced life could quickly spiral out of control.
This is where Wise Mind comes in. Offering a way to draw from both mind states while not relying on one or the other too fiercely. When I started DBT I was trapped in Emotional Mind nearly all of the time. Acting on one impulsion and then another. Following my psychotic delusions to their end. And, ultimately, putting myself in danger.
I think Marsha Linehan put Wise Mind best when she says, “Wise Mind is like having a heart, everyone has one, whether they experience it or not.” I found, when learning about Wise Mind and becoming acquainted with it, it was best to start with breathing exercises. If you can imagine Wise Mind at the bottom of your stomach you can almost feel Wise Mind growing inside of you as you breathe. Sort of like the calm after the storm.
Try to recognize when your mind state is tipped in one direction or another. I great way to do this is practicing writing down what you are feeling when you are upset, feeling anxious, in crisis, or in my case, experiencing hallucinations. This way, once you have recognized your mind state Rational Mind or Emotional Mind, you will be able to take a step back and begin practicing breathing exercises. Imagining Wise Mind growing inside of your body and bringing with it a calm.
Try the 5-7-5 pattern (it’s a personal favorite). Which is inhaling on the 5, exhaling on the 7, and inhaling again on the 5. This exercise should be repeated for as long as you need it for and until you find yourself in a better place and you can think more clearly.
I heard recently that an estimated 14 million people will lose their health care when the ACA is repealed. Now, that’s just an estimate, but I don’t think any reduction in the total could make this any better. The scariest part for me is that I might be among those 14 million people. As a poor Mainer, surviving off SSI only, which is just over 8,000$ annually, I qualify for MaineCare. (MaineCare is Medicaid) Not only to I qualify, but I rely very heavily on it. The cost of my medications alone is over 1500$ a month. That total excludes the cost of treatment, of possible ER trips, and possible psychiatric hospitalizations. Even if I could afford to pay for healthcare I could never, even with it, afford my current treatment.
Now according to an article published in the BBC just four days ago called Trump Health Bill: Winners and Losers, the people who will benefit most from the ACA repeal are the rich and the urban, along with young people paying for private insurance.
Unfortunately, I’m not any of those.
This is what the BBC had to say about the people who will get hit the hardest, (not shown here is the paragraph about the elderly who are included in the list of socioeconomic groups that will be most affected).
Poor: The new plan would roll back much of the provisions put in place to protect low-wage earners under Obamacare. It would mean significantly higher premiums and reduced tax credits for middle and low-income earners. It would end the expansion of Medicaid, which covers low-income people, and overhaul the entire programme. States would be sent a fixed amount of money per Medicaid enrolee, also called a “per-capita cap”. The additional federal funding that covered expanding Medicaid would be eliminated by 2020, leaving states to bear the responsibility of making up the difference in money. States could then reduce eligibility or cut provider payments. Enrolees making around $20,000 a year at any age would be hit the hardest, according to Kaiser.
Rural: Another group that would lose under AHCA is people living in rural areas, where the cost of coverage tends to be higher due to fewer hospitals and insurers. Research shows that health insurance premiums are typically more costly in rural counties and states. Rural residents also rely more heavily on public insurance than those living in cities. While Obamacare took local healthcare costs into consideration, tax credits under the Republican plan are the same as in states like Alaska and New York. If premiums grow faster than inflation over time, the proposed tax credits will grow more slowly than those under Obamacare, according to Kaiser. Medicaid cuts could also be harmful to rural hospitals, which are already struggling to keep their doors open.
On top of all of this when the ACA is repealed, as I am pretty sure it will be, Trump’s administration’s plans to cut funding to mental health and substance abuse treatment. According to this article by Psych Central, “in 2020, the plan is to move away from open-ended entitlements in Medicaid and switch to a per-person allotment to the states. This eventual change would likely have a devastating impact on the people who are covered under Medicaid — generally the poorest American citizens. The cap per individual in 2020 would be based upon how much funding the state was receiving in 2016. This effectively means the states will be working with 4-year-old, insufficient budgets — all the while healthcare costs continue to climb.Worse things happen after 2020, too, especially if you have a mental illness or substance abuse problem and use Medicaid to get your treatment. Beginning in 2020, the proposed GOP plan would eliminate the current requirement that Medicaid cover basic mental-health and addiction services in states that expanded it. Instead, the feds will allow each state to decide whether to include those benefits in Medicaid plans. In order to keep their Medicaid costs down, many states would rollback such coverage.”
I’ll be blunt here: people are going to die.
And I could very well be one of those people.
I’m terrified. I’m so terrified last night I say in the bathroom and cried. I cried for the 14 million poor and elderly people who will lose their health care for no reason, and I cried for myself, who will most likely loose my health care and have to go off my medications and say goodbye to my mental health treatment. It’s almost unbelievable…no I take that back, it is unbelievable. It’s murder. It’s unethical.
The worst part about it is not being able to do anything. I just have to sit here until I lose my healthcare and then continue to sit around until I loose my mind.
People are going to die and nobody can do anything about it.